Midnight Musings

As usual, I should be in bed right now.

But it also just so happens that i feel this sudden urge to update my very consistent (cough) blog.

I can lie to myself, okay? It makes me feel better.

The question of the day is this: Why do we ALWAYS want what we can't have??

It's quite dumb, really. I'm not just talking about your heart pounding a few extra beats when you see that cute guy you feel like is out of your league. Granted, I don't have the answer for that kind of wanting what you can't have either, but I mean something different at the moment. I mean the human tendency to take for granted what they have---even to the point where one can convince themselves that they don't even really want it. And then boom. Once it's gone, it's an entirely different story. You'll beg, plead, and do anything you can to get back that which was lost. But it doesn't matter if you really get it back, because the moment you do, you're back at square one. You're back at not caring about what you have. You're back at not being sure if you REALLY want it.

WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH US?!?

Okay, sorry to bring y'all into this. The real question should have been "What is wrong with me?" But it comforted me to pretend that everyone else was in the same predicament as I.

So why does it hurt so bad in phase B? Why can't we keep our feelings the same? Why do we have to go around craving what we used to have?

To be honest, it's quite messed up.

Maybe, just maybe....it's like an addiction of some sort. You have the desire to have it...and it's quite difficult to stay away. But once you have that thing, you can think to yourself--eh, it's not THAT good. But then you go wanting it again. MAYBE relationships are really just addictions to other people.

Yup, that was quite the heartless thing to say.

Okay, I'm done. I'm going to bed.

NIGHT!