TUM TUM TUM TUM

So, I figured I'd give a little sneak peak to my facebook profile picture that I'm going to have for October/Halloween. It's a little bit of me, samuel, and picnick.com. Gotta love it! It originally was a picture of me and samuel from prom my senior year. lol.
So, i've realized that either i'm A) nostalgic or B) I really like people. Because from the last couple of days, i've reconnected with people i was friends with back in third grade from when i used to live in Ely, Nevada. Here's a rundown of Ely. It's pretty much the smallest ugliest city ever. Well, it's not really the city that's ugly. It's more like the mountains with the ugly brush. Until I moved to Utah I always thought mountains were ugly. I would have much rather cherished my beloved green cornfields. As a matter of fact, I really like green. Well, not that it's my favorite color, I just like being surrounded by green. But, the more i've been in utah the more i've become accustomed to the browness. At least the mountains here are pretty.
I would like to hereby vent about boys. If you so desire, just skip to the next paragraph, or reader who doesn't exist. crap. Except for I don't know what to say. Alright, so, here's my luck. There's this boy that I like that definitely doesn't like me. I'm pretty good at reading the signs. But he's so dang cute! So that means that probably for the next three weeks or so I will try to no avail to win over his affections. the end. Because at that point I will have given up. but NOT until then. When in reality I should have already given up way before then. Like, before now even. haha. Oh well. And THEN there is another boy. Who i'm not sure if I like or not. I may. But I feel like history is repeating itself. If it's right, then we'll just end up being friends. lol. And there's also that boy that I haven't hear from in a long time that will always have my heart. sigh. (is that anime enough? lol)
Okay, on to other topics like....the fact that my back hurts. It's probably due to working too much and then doing too much homework and being too stressed. Darn scoliosis! And I know it's just me being stubborn. At any point in time I could take the anti-inflammatory that my doctor prescribed for me, but i'd rather not. I really dont like taking medications for things. But sometimes my back gets so inflamed that it's rather debilitating. I remember last year I had to just lie on the floor because it hurt so badly.
My stomach also hurts gosh dang it! wow i'm venting. hey, but that's what blogs are for, right? In any case, i'm going to end it. It's hot in here and i need to go to bed because i have class in the morning! wooh! also, i'm starting to get tired and i need to take my iron pills!
gaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!
bubye.

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Blog This... Blog That...

Have you ever started something that you knew with an absolute positiveness that it was doomed to fail? That, for me, is this blog. I can't keep a journal worth a lickin. I've tried. First was when i was around ten years old. That journal lasted a good two entries. The next was when i was a little older. It ranged from 2003-2008. It contained intermittent entries that usually talked about boys. A lot of information would be left out because i would get so ridiculously overwhelmed by what I needed to say, that I'd just leave it all out and start fresh. Then again, I have a huge loathing of repeating myself. The first time i tell a story it's quite exciting. Any time after that I feel like people can do without hearing what happened. So why start something that I know isn't going to work out? Beats me. Because I can.
So right now my head is ringing with a little bit of too much thought. You see, I love to read. But it's kind of overkill to read four books in two days. It gets to the point where your mind goes numb and you think too much. Well, not necessarily think too much, but too in depth. Who actually goes so far as to verbalize their thoughts in their head? oo, me! Well, if i read too much.
Also, I'm a little tired because I forgot to take my iron supplements last night and this morning. I kept falling asleep re-reading about the four gospels (there's a midterm coming up).
I'm also a teeny bit overwhelmed by my to-do list. It's a kind of random list that doesn't necessarily need to be done right away. It's stuff I need to do but keep forgetting. For instance, I need to buy a new SD card to replace my old one because my twin brother asked me to send him some more pictures. I have to go and buy a lock because I'm borrowing my roommate's. I need to write about five missionaries letters...since, well, july. I need to return a gift card that a friend left at another friend's apartment. The list just keeps going on and on. and I had to write it down because I'll forget. That's how my mind works.
Actually, my mind is, well, different. Scatterbrained would be a very good adjective. I reckon that most people's brains are at least a little bit organized. But my tends to be vehemently against organization. Which is why my room suffers. It, too is a mess. haha. But really, I can't even go as far as to try to plan a schedule. My mind would just refuse it. It would be too constraining and I don't think I have enough self-discipline to enforce it.
I'm also a very spontaneous person. I have these impulses that I usually try to suppress. I don't think it works out too hot. I'll get impulses to do seemingly innocent things such as to read, but then I'll end up reading for two days straight. Or I'll want to buy food or clothes or go somewhere random. Or do something slightly insane. It just happens. But a lot of the stuff I want to do are just whims, so then I get unmotivated pretty quickly. Sometimes so quickly that I never do the thing I wanted to do.
I also tend to be very loquacious. The more tired I am, the more I talk. The more nervous I am, the more I talk. The happier I am, the more I, well, laugh. I love to laugh. Except for it has a debilitating effect on me. You see, when I laugh REALLY REALLY REALLY hard, I just drop. I guess I can't multitask or something, because if I'm standing, I just drop to my knees. I also cackle when I laugh really hard. My twin brother and I, when it comes down to it, have almost identical laughs. Which is sad. And we get made fun of for our laughs. BUT the good thing is my normal--what you said isn't that hilarious--laugh isn't awkward. Sometimes, on rare occasions, I do snort. But, like I said, on RARE occasions.
I also like to listen to Mariah Carey. But that actually spawned from my twin brother being obsessed with her. So, her new album, in partial tribute Minnie Driver, is entitled Memoirs of an imperfect angel. Minnie's album was called Perfect Angel. In any case, I figured that would be a good name for my blog that won't talk about anything in specific. Just ramblings. Well, I might put in events from time to time. IF i ever write again.
~Sheila

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